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[confiscated]

sonovabitch got signed
it's fine, i'll figure it out

i just dont know how im supposed to act like i dont fucking hate the other guy
because i didn't, not really.
but i sort of hate his existence right now

[needlebomb]

dude, there are always going to be people in your life who you hate. sometimes it's justified, most of the time it's not.
you've either gotta take your licks and move on or figure out how to win your first sub back.
neither of those options are gonna change if you hate this ex any less, so. you may as well hate him.

[confiscated]

tell me about someone u hate
how u deal with them

[needlebomb]

uh... that's probably not a good idea.
the people i hate and this ex that you're jealous of are radically different.
my advice wouldn't help you.

[confiscated]

i'm looking for distraction
not comparison

cmon

[needlebomb]

[ ... ]

fine.
early into his presidency, ronald reagan slashed funding across the entire scope of u.s. mental health facilities. hundreds of mentally ill patients were released onto the streets, many of them without families or friends willing to take on the burden of caring for them.
barbara salinger was a suicidal schizophrenic. homeless, unwanted, overlooked.
when i was a kid - seven years old, maybe eight - she threw herself off the highest surface she could find and plummeted to her death. my mom and dad just happened to be walking by. they were crushed to death by the weight of her body. i watched it happen.
ronald reagan killed my parents, so i'm going to kill him, too.
old fucks like that, powerful old men whose short-sighted choices fuck up millions of lives, they never face the firing squad. those are the people i hate.
feeding my ambition and dreaming about the satisfaction i'll feel when i one day see the life drain from his eyes -
that's what keeps me going.

[confiscated]

[This is one of those times where Tate can't say it, but - he's fucking enthralled by this story. It snatches his attention from wallowing in his own misery the way talking about anyone's death does, the haunting reality of life being so... quick to end. Snap of your fingers and it's gone. He laughs to himself in real time at the hate directed at Reagan, but hey. He's not about to dissuade it. Marcus makes good points.]

if it helps u feel better, last i heard he got alzheimer's
but i digress, more power to u.
old rich bastards that sit on the top deserve a shortcut to the bottom

i'm sorry about your parents

[needlebomb]

[ marcus has been pretty indecisive about whether or not he believes in alternate timelines, despite all the proof of them duplicity's been shoving down his throat - but he's irritated enough with tate telling him reagan grows old to decide there's something to the idea of branching histories. he responds, short and fast. ]

he's not going to live long enough to get alzheimer's.
not if i can help it.

whatever. they're dead.
who cares. saying you're sorry won't do shit.

[confiscated]

dead doesnt always mean gone, but i get it
empty words won't change the past

so all that murder school's to kill the pres?
i wish i had a goal that concrete
rn i just wanna kill a few people here for being pricks
doesn't work though
liers come back

[needlebomb]

no.
i mean - killing the president is what i plan to do when i graduate, but it's not why i'm there.
a bunch of kids died. everyone thinks i did it. i was sleeping on the streets, dodging the cops, and i got scouted for my rep.
it's kind of a whole thing.

this is pretty empty advice, given everything, but maybe you shouldn't kill people for being pricks.
if they deserve it, fine, but unless you're completely, 100% sure you can get away with it, the fact that people can come back means you might get yourself well and truly fucked if you're not careful.

[confiscated]

yeah, i know
i'll just have to think of other more creative ways to make them miserable

how many kids died? how?

[needlebomb]

a lot.
a shooting.

[ backdropped by a homemade explosive and the fire that it caused... it was a whole thing. he doesn't need to get into it. he's already said a lot about himself, today. more than he was sure he ever wanted to, here. ]

i really don't think this is what you wanted to talk about when you messaged me to cry about being dumped.

[confiscated]

if u didnt do it, were u set up?

and its a good distraction, like i said
it got me out of my head. i needed it

[needlebomb]

i never said i didn't do it.

[ he didn't, he just doesn't want to go into the whole chester thing just yet. not because he cares if tate knows, exactly, but because there would be some pretty damning ramifications if that got out back home. until he's sure lin isn't going to show up out of nowhere, he should keep his mouth shut. he's already said way too much. ]

couldn't hurt to talk about something happier, if you're that desperate for a distraction.
girls or music or something.

[confiscated]

u meet any hot chicks yet?

i'm still waiting on my mixed tape

[needlebomb]

no. granted, i haven't really gone looking.
but hey, feel free to set me up with someone.

you'll get it when you get it.
i guess i'll try to finish it by the weekend.

[confiscated]

not that many chicks around our age in these parts
do u mind older? i can hook u up with older

[needlebomb]

maybe.

[ except the more they talk about this, the more marcus resents himself and tate for sounding like every meathead jock he hated back home. he wants to know - just - cool girls, not hot chicks, or whatever. this was a stupid conversation to try and have, he decides. ]

nevermind. don't worry about it.
how are you going to handle this shit with your sub and their ex? other than getting fucked up for a couple of days.

[confiscated]

idk

i don't really have a lot of experience dealing with this shit
i might talk to my therapist? that's a responsible thing to do
but i am getting wasted as fuck first. otherwise i'll just get angry

[needlebomb]

i think you're supposed to save your anger for therapy.
getting it out in a safe environment is what it's for.

[ not that he's trying to stop tate from self-medicating, but you know. ]

[confiscated]

yeah well, we'll see

if you have better suggestions i'm all fucking ears

[needlebomb]

i don't.

[ ... ]

is this going to impact the business? like - was your sub involved in... sales, or... procuring product, or anything?
because i've found some pretty safe clients and i've been spreading your name a bit. it's gonna be a lot of work to roll that back.

[confiscated]

no

if anything, this'll make it easier to deal with
i won't have to hide anything from him.

that's good though. thanks for doing the legwork
i appreciate it and owe you

[needlebomb]

dude, it's fine. you don't owe me shit.
granted, if you want to reconsider giving me 60/40, i'm not going to say no, but.

we're friends. this is what we do. give each other a leg up, pull each other out of the shit outsiders put us through.
if you wanna blow off that 1AM call and come hang out with me, we could start the weekend early.

[confiscated]

if i didn't have just over a week left in this contract i would
i need to look like i'm not resentful. give the impression of not being pissed off
yada yada appearances

but tomorrow afternoon instead?
u can come over to my place if u want