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[needlebomb]

mm.

of course i don't.
just — you know.
it's that thing.
someone else makes a mistake, you know that they're only human, you know that they're still a good person. you make a mistake, and you sit in your room in the dark and tell yourself you're a fucking idiot and that nobody will ever love you.
your friend gets a contract, and you see it for the survival tactic that it is. you get a contract, and suddenly you're a class traitor who loves sucking boots and pledging your allegiance.
you know?
please tell me this is relatable and that i'm not being depressing again.

[jizzledim]

i mean yeah, kinda
but i think you're also kind of looking at it too deeply
you wouldn't sign with anyone that wanted to force you to do weird bullshit
i don't think signing a 3 month contract is pledging your allegiance
it's more like
covering your ass and making sure you get something to eat and a place to sleep that isn't infested with bugs
while we both try to figure out how to get around this shit without being thrown in jail

[needlebomb]

yeah.
well, maybe i will. whatever happens happens.
thanks.
sorry.

[ ... ]

it's kind of a miracle that we haven't ended up in jail. here or back home.
what with all the violence, the law-breaking, the assassinations.
i never thought i would meet my quota here. kind of crazy that i've hit it every time.
i guess there's still time.
i'm bound to land myself in a cell eventually.
come and visit me when i do.

[jizzledim]

just make sure he's not a creepy asshole before hand
you're good at reading people, aren't you

also hahaha
i've come pretty close to being arrested back home a couple times
lucky for me cops are lazy motherfuckers who can't outrun a skateboard or keep track of a kid with neon green hair
the guards here seem way way more strict though so
i'm kind of surprised too
that neither of us have been taken in yet
also i'll jerk you off like three times in one day if that's what it takes to keep you out of jail
i'm just saying
not that i think it'll ever come to that, but
you know

[needlebomb]

kind of?
i mean, i'm good at assuming the worst about people. i can prepare myself if he turns out to be a scumbag.
you don't need to worry about me, though.
tate's way too skinny to be a threat.

i don't think it ever needs to come to that for you to jerk me off three times in one day.
i mean, i'm game for that anytime. you just have to ask.

[jizzledim]

yeah, but so am i
and i could take you

[ marcus could probably kick his ass, but he's just messin' anyway ]

you ever jerk someone off during a natural disaster before

[ not that this flood counts as a natural disaster... yet. ]

[needlebomb]

in a fight?

[ just checking. you know, given the tone of this conversation. ]

is that an invitation or a rejection
sometimes it's hard to tell

[jizzledim]

what if i just don't specify

[ hm. is this pushing a boundary? ]

actually
i will specify that it's not a rejection

[needlebomb]

so it's an invitation?

[ still just checkin. ]

[jizzledim]

maybe
what are you gonna do
swim here?